My friend Claudia had her baby Paulina on Sunday. We went over to her house last night to see the new baby. Camilo is crazy about babies, especially little babies. I am kind of the opposite. They are so small and tiny and they cry all day, all night. I like Matthew's age, he can tell me exactly what he wants and doesn't want, we can just throw him in the car and go, he loves to watch movies at the theater and is quiet the whole time.
I know that Camilo has wanted another child since we had Matthew. I feel extremely guilty because I am not ready, I don't know if I ever will be. I keep telling him that I would probably have to have a c-section again and I don't want that. Not only that I would have to worry about losing weight all over again. I was miserable after I had Matthew, I felt like I was in somebody else's body. But there is also that another baby brings a lot of extra stress, and money. I am not about to stress myself out any more than necessary. I just want to know where it says that if you have a family you have to have more than one kid? Sometimes I feel like I am being selfish, it is just such a touchy subject for me. I am just whining :(
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I with you on this one. I dont like babies. They are messy, loud, and stinky. Little Kids = OK, but they have to be somewhat behaved. No crazies allowed. I got some nice stuff at home and I dont want some crazy kid going bonkers, ruining my Feng Shui.
I dont think you're selfish. I think you're being realistic. No need to rush into another child. Spoil the one you have, maybe get that kitty. Just as needy but not as stinky. ;)
Thanks for the support, I think I am in an environment where all the women do is get pregnant, and I can't escape!! I love my son and I didn't have negative feelings towards him when he was born...however I think I am used to him being older now and I like it much better. Plus with Camilo's job he is gone half the time, I didn't sign up for marriage to be a single parent. I think I am feeling this way because I have been to three stinking baby showers this month already and I was invited to another one this Sunday....I told my friend thanks..but no thanks! Another thing that keeps me from wanting to have another child is how crazy this world is...terrorism, college costs through the roof, etc. Matthew is very very spoiled and that is fine with me, but he is still very polite.
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